I have been looking for you,

I have looked into the bucket of water,

Stared, for hours.

For you, yes, for you.

I have looked at the rising sun taking over,

And setting sun gazillion times.

Where are you? I-

I honestly believed I had you,

most of you, some of you,

a fraction of you?

But I had you, and I was there,

In the moment, with you and me,

We had it together, or so I thought,

Where’d you go?

Am I supposed to search for you or

you are coming back?

Remember I tried, efforts count.

Efforts is all that counts.

My sanity.